Change

Here I stand on the precipice of change.  I used to be scared of all of the changes that were coming.  Being abandoned by my friends, starting fresh with new people, new classes and the such.  Now, at this moment I'm chomping at the bit for change to come!  Come Tuesday night and I will be finished with my first year of college.  It feels like just yesterday I was starting, wishing that I could go back to high school where I had friends and felt comfortable.  Now I'm ready for my new adventures.  Part of this is the fact that my worrying over if I should go on a mission or not is finally over.
         On Sunday, Arpil 14, during church I was called into my Bishop's office.  I assumed that it was for ecclesiastical endorsement.  I also thought "this will be a great opportunity to talk with him about a mission!" I walked into his office and we chatted for a minute.  I brought up my thoughts and feelings on a mission, Bishop reassured me that I would know when it was the right time to go on a mission.  After that he said, "The reason I wanted to talk with you was to extend to you a calling."  I was floored.  I really didn't see that coming.  As he was telling me about it, I realized that this was my answer about a mission.
          After church I went to a "Listen and Learn" with my stake relief society presidency.  In this meeting one of the speakers related our callings to a mission.  She started to read the standard missionary call letter.  For me it would have read "Dear Sister Annie, you have been called to serve as a Relief Society President.  You will serve in a YSA ward in Provo.  You have been found as one worthy to serve in this calling......" and so on.  This really was my answer.  I'm called on a mission in my own ward to serve the women and minister to them.  I feel unequal to this calling.  I'm the youngest girl in my ward.  There are lots of girls that could do so much better than I can, but this is where the Lord needs me right now.
          This will be a big change for me.  I will have to stop going to so many farewells or going home for the weekend.  Even though that will be hard, I'm ready for it!  I have two finals left before this semester is over.  That means making new friends and starting new classes.  I have also found that I'm changing on the inside.  I don't really care about the same things that I used to care about.  I'm more focused on what will really impact me.  I've also found that I have not been as outgoing as I used to be.  I'm SO ready to change that.  I want to make changes that will make me a better person and will help others around me!  So, here it goes.  I'll take one step at a time to make sure that the changes going on around me and in me are good.